MY SIXTH RETROSPECTION

Spring is known as the time of hope and a new beginning. And although it is only January, this month brought with it a new breeze in my life. And with it came a swift of spring air.

You might know the saying: Falling down, getting up, straightening crown, carrying on.

I always thought that getting up was the hardest part but this you do without an active decision with just getting up every day. “Straightening my crown” took me a whole month. I had to accept being back and standing behind this decision despite all the other voices saying otherwise.

“Carrying on” then combines all other three steps. It is all about confrontation, which I obviously tried to avoid the last month.

You cannot force someone to get back to life. But now I am ready to do so. I want to start living again and I want to get back to the race.

Although I ended my project, I know now I did not fail. And I did not sacrifice something.

I flourished with this experience and learned more in three months than I could have hoped for in a whole year. One of my volunteering friends asked me:

“Is this not what volunteering is being about at the end? Challenging yourself and experiencing something that changes your life?”

I hope this is what volunteering is about because it sounds right to me. I mean what would life be without all the bad stuff?

We would not be able to cherish the good. That is what would happen. We would start to talk everything bad.

So, when people ask me whether I hold a grudge against that organisation and this city, I realise I do not. Whatever happened it does not diminish the good that happened. I still worked with children, was able to give workshops, got to know the Polish culture and the catholic religion.

And most of all, I got to know a bit more about myself. ;)