Accidently perfect

Dear Kirke,

The aim of this letter is to thank you for being my friend for the past seven years and especially during these last five months we have spent far away from home.

You and I have always had the habit to find unexpected adventures on every step of our way. We are the kind of people who go to borrow a ladder from the neighbours in order to break into your home or who accidently witness a music video shooting in a forest at 3 am in the night. So it is not very surprising that this autumn we took on our greatest adventure so far - 5 months in Romania. Being equally clueless about what to study after finishing high school we found ourselves on an EVS path.

It was surprising that we were both chosen for the same project and at first I was worried. What if we will start to fight? What if we stay in our comfort zone? Now I realise that these fears were stupid. In reality we did it without even raising our voices towards each other. You have been the perfect partner for travelling, cooking and speaking. Alone I would have never had the chance to discover as many new places as we have – the Balkans, Budapest and of course a lot of Romania. Travelling can sometimes be difficult, but we passed every situation with flying colours. Our curiosity has a tendency to lead us into unexpected situations, but these are what make life interesting. These adventures are what we will tell our grandchildren.

We always make jokes that we are like an old married couple, but it is kind of true. You really have been my “husband” during these 5 months. We have been spending every day together. We cook, work and discuss everything together. Sometimes we even forget to speak because we feel so comfortable with each other. At the same time, I know that I can come to you with everything and you will listen and understand. I can trust you with the deepest and dirtiest parts of my soul and you will not judge. In the beginning of our EVS it was difficult to communicate with the other volunteers in our project because of the language barrier, but I knew that in you I would always find the conversation partner I needed. You know, sometimes it is necessary to discuss more important things than food or the weather.  

Thank you for being so patient. I know that when I am in a bad mood or hungry (usually one is caused by the other), I have no mercy. Thank you for fighting with me over who gets to wash the dishes. I know we both hate doing it, but because we care about each other, we want to rescue the other from the pain. Thank you for being passionate about volunteering. Together we got a lot of work done and I could always count on you. Thank you for not being lazy. You even motivated me with simple things like going to the gym. It was making me feel so guilty that I also had to go more often.  Having many more things to thank you for, I will say it shortly to save you from reading my letter until tomorrow. Simply put, thank you for being amazing.

Being a proper Estonian, it has always been difficult for me to express my emotions. You are so important for me that it hurts, but most of the time I just don’t find the words or courage to tell you. I hope you know that I try and I believe I have become less Estonian in the field of emotions, but it is still not enough. I find it easier to put my emotions down on paper and that is exactly what I am trying to do now. So thank you again for everything and know that I love you.

Now we will go back to Estonia and start living our lives separately. I have no doubt you will go far in any field you will choose for yourself and it is time for us to start pursuing our dreams. But that does not mean the end of our friendship. You know, it is still possible to be friends without living in the same room; this is what normal people do. No one or nothing can ever break this bond between us and no one can ever take away our memories. Remember, we will always have Romania.

Always yours,

Maria