An adventure out of my comfort zone

Finally here I am, starting to do one of the things that I mostly like in this world, writing. And what I would like to talk is just about truth, what really means for me being here, far away from my hometown, in a place where I still struggle to speak the language, where I still feel confused about a lot of things. But that's me and it's not supposed to be the same for every one. 
Almost three months ago I made a decision that completly changed my life and so on changed myself. I took a flight, alone, with two luggages bigger than me, and that's not so hard to be, since I'm almost 1,50 m. I decided to go far away from my comfort zone in order to discover the beauty and the magic of the unknow and facedvchallenges. Yes, I remember when people asked me why do I wanted to do this experience I answerd by saying "I want to experience challenges in order to grow up and show to myself how strong I could be", and that's true, what I've really realized is that I'm really brave. All of you, all of the people who choose to live this type of experience are brave, and we shall remind this to us every day. 
Being out my comfort zone means so much to me, especially because I used to be a very anxious person and I'm still learning how to handle it. This is really the type of experience who is helping me to faced what I'm afraid of and show to myself that I'm my only limit.
My first three weeks where really hard. I started to think about life in a deep way. I started to overthink about the reason why I'm here. I had to give myself time to realize that I choose to be here, that nobody has forced me, and then I decided to not give up and start to feel glad about what I'm doing.
I work in a very special youth club in Germany, next to Berlin, where people are always happy and seems always so kind and funny. This place is amazing, everyone is friendly with each other, they help each other, they make you smile in every moment. I'm so glad to be in a such place. Even if sometimes I still feel like an outsider.
In these three months what I've been realized is that people are so different and we should love them for who they truly are. We should be kind to everyone, and patient with each other. We should not judge someone because it's different. Differences make us special. What is different is intresting. Difference is the beginning of thinking, of discovering, of knowing and sometimes start to love.
Another thing that I'm learning is that the way we choose to use our time is important and it determine the way we feel about ourself. I used to not study german so much, wasting my time having fun or watching movies and then I realize what I was doing wrong.
I learned that we can analyze ourself in the way we feel and react in certain situations, we can learn a lot about ourself from these situations.
What I'm gonna do in 2020, as the end of my project would be the 31th July, is learning who I am, how to love myself. I will grow up, I will become more stronger and indipendent and I will for sure be able to share with people my talent. I hope this year I will be proud about my ESC and I will be a change in someone else's life.